𝖘𝖆𝖗𝖆𝖍𝖈𝖔𝖘𝖒𝖔𝖘

life is scary. I've been thinking about this a lot recently.. about life and its meaning. if there even is any at all. the only thing I know for sure is that this thing called life is so goddamn scary. people leave and there's nothing you can do about it. bad things happen to you and all you can do is watch. no one can save you from pain. no one can protect you from being hurt again either. so is it even worth trying? how am I supposed to find the strength to get up and try again and again when the only guarantee is that good things never last? how can I even enjoy the good times, knowing this unbearable pain that will eventually follow? I watched a show the other day where a child asked an old lady why we're all here. she said something about how there isn't really one specific reason, and how everyone has to find this reason for themselves instead. all I know is that I'm getting tired of searching for my reason.